Angela started reacting explosively to Michael's sketchy behavior. Over time, she became increasingly verbally abusive towards him, ultimately causing him to run away from her. Since February 2024, Michael has been living on his own and preparing for a legal battle initiated by Angela.

Michael has been absent from Angela's life for about eight months, yet it appears that this period of time hasn't been enough for him to erase the memories of their seven-year-long relationship.

Recently, Michael shared a song on his Instagram Story about loss and reminiscing about good times. The song in question was "Memories" by Maroon 5, which was posted by @themusicaddiict. It seems that the former 90 Day Fiancé star resonated with the second verse of the song, particularly the lines reflecting on a time without "pain" and believing in "forever," only to have everything suddenly change.

What Michael Ilesanmi’s Update About Feeling “Pain” Means

Michael May Be Thinking About His Mother's ing

Michael didn't add a caption to his repost, making it difficult to pinpoint his exact feelings. However, he's ing someone he lost. Michael has experienced two significant losses in his life: his mother and his wife Angela. He may be thinking about his mother, who ed away in August 2022. Michael opened up about her ing during therapy in 90 Day: The Last Resort season 1, where he tearfully expressed, "My family, my friends...it makes me miss my late mom." It's possible that Michael felt a sudden emotional pain about losing his mother after listening to this song.

On the other hand, Michael could have also shared this song in remembrance of his time with Angela. There's no doubt he was truly in love with her. During their seven-year-long relationship, Michael never raised his voice at his wife, even when she verbally and emotionally abused him. It appears that he's still grieving the end of his marriage and experiences strong emotional pain occasionally when thinking about the good memories. Although the 90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After? alum has clarified he would never reconcile with Angela, he does seem to her fondly at times.

Our Take On Michael Ilesanmi’s Cryptic Update About Feeling “Pain”

Michael May Be Having Second Thoughts About Letting Angela Go

There's a possibility that Michael now recognizes the value of his ex-wife, Angela. She stood by his side after every cheating scandal and brought him to the United States, despite discovering his secret piggy bank and suspicious WhatsApp group called Paradise Men. Angela gave Michael plenty of opportunities to improve as a husband. However, he consistently failed to show her respect and repeatedly betrayed her trust in their private and public life. Now that Angela is happily living her solo life, the 90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After? alum seems to be regretting his decision to let her go.

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Sources: Michael Ilesanmi/Instagram, @themusicaddiict/Instagram